Friends Forever

Now after settling down in Gurgaon it was time to look back for friends with whom I was with few months back. When Prateek came for his VISA interview I couldn't gather courage to see him off till bus stand because I don't know why but I knew that I would not be able to control my eyes. In these few days when evr I remeber Prateek I always remember his words which says that we would be hardely in touch with one another and if it happen then it will be restricted to a handfew. I think he was quite right in his observation. When almost everyother of my batchmates is in HYD or Bangalore I simply remember guys like Wardesh, Dhote, Prateek and Bawari. I never realised that I and share so many things so we were not simply roomie in 3 yr but we exchange a bit of telepathy. The day I was thinking to give him a call, same night he called me can not be a mere coincidence rather it proves my hypothesis. When I was talking to him I didn't feel anything except talking to an old acquintence but later I realised that how much I miss them.......Friends Forever

MY new daily routine

It has been almost 20 days working for EVS. I never realised that getting up at 6.15 is not a difficult task . Everyday starts with a missed call form transport department of EVS to pick me up from my house and then a circle of pickups before I reach my office. Checking mails and then going for coffee with my Varun, Priyanka and Yashika. As CCD says a lot can happen with a simple harmless cup of coffee, I too listen to there talks and give my input if required. In such a small interval of time we have become friends and started sharing thoughts. Then back to work doing a lot of work in EXCEL, I never realised that these many features are available in it when I was in IIT, though in my perception I was using a lot of features of EXCEL which even my batchmates were not aware. Lunch at usual time 1 pm when again the same gang. I really like them. Beside them others are friendly too. After a break of half an hour again back to work. Visiting lot of sites and reading annual reports of so many companies has been my job so far with an exception of few days when I am treated as EXPERT who knows everything of PAPER INDUSTRY whenever client querries are there related to it. At 5 I really loose interest in work and start getting ready for leaving office. Finally at 5.30 pm again picked up in a cab and back to my place. Viewing TV is only thing I generally do all the evening along with reading magazines.

My new destination

Hey hibernation period of 1.5 months is over and now I have joined a completely new domain. I have grown an undergrad to Business Analyst. I am really happy to be here but still the nostalgic feeling to leaving all my buddies hasn't faded and i think it can never fade in entire life.
Few days back Prateek came for VISA interview, when he was leaving I went see him off, I went back from the mid way because I was knowing I will feel very bad once he is off to home.

I m trying to adjust to new environmenthope I do it ASAP.

Nostalgic moments of separation

At the present juncture of time no body can better understand how bound we were during our 4 yr of stay in the department other than my batchmates. Whenever they are leaving my heart gets filled with emotions and thoughts about "God knows when we are going to see each other again".
It was time when some of us spend almost 24 hr of the day with each other and when he is leaving it is really difficult to hide our emotions .

The way Bawari gave me a hug and we wept it spoke all we wanted to convey to each other.


I will miss you guys.

The Grand Revival

After 12 th April it took me 2 days to take some hard decisions so that I could help my self in doing something which I really wanted not just to enjoy a good life.
I decided not to ask my superiors for my admission in SUNY- ESF rather I thought of joining Evalueserve. I thought may be that is the way I am destined to achieve higher accolades in life.
With 2 days of deep retrospection and discussion with Dad finally I think what ever decision I have taken will surely help me in coming time.
And finally see after 5 days I am back to normal and feeling just gr8 thinking about lot of new stuff which I will be enjoying in the coming 6 months or so in my new assignment as a Business Analyst in EVS.

Hope I keep my cherry mood like this .....

Main aisa kyoon hoon ......

I feel like every time I force myself in a situation where I doesn't fit in then I take some emotional decisions and let myself down ...................
after serious introspection too I can't find a reason GOD do help me out in knowing myself.................

Never Thought it will be only Yaadein

Not a single day during my stay in US I ever realized that those will be the only days I will be staying in USA .........everything which I use to see I use to think that I am going to see it again but alas now it is more than clear that at least I am not going to US in coming fall for my MS ......can't help it bcz US universities have expressed there unwillingness to take me there ...........
Good bye Ravi-------US

Why so ???

Why am I so dejected from last few days , I don't want to go home neither do I want to see my old pals from Sainik School ....Is it the problem associated of non confirmation of admission or something else.....I think I know but I don't want to accept it . Every now an then I keep on searching something by which I can at least waste some of my time ....joined Cogni team to have it but alas I am of no use there too ......

God why I am like this ??????

Am I really what I now think I should be ?

Its really confusing and its driving me addle .......Every day in last few days I felt that what is the real use of wasting my time on damn studies.... Is this what I wanted to be after all.. may be I can say I wanted to be having a respectable position in studies may be the topper ... but never thought that it will not be accompanied by the other funny moments of the life ....I am of no use .....i can't dance , sing .....I really feel like becoming guys who r near me ... I wanna look like them who are having care free attitude... but the point is that can I become like that ........Can I throw so many things from my mind.....The first and form est thing which I think should go from me is EGO ... it will prevent me from scaling new heights ... so no more messing with people even if they directly attack me on any issue .......to be carefree one need to bring it from within ......what do I need really now .......why don't I pursue what I want .....I appreciate dancing , singing ,painting and other form of art so why not give it a shot .....may be guitar or any such stuff which can really keep me busy and don't let me feel lonely......I am having a job to do even if calls doesn't come so why to worry for that ....if they come its ok .........even if I go there I should pursue what I really want ......
So from now onwards no more EGO and I will be a humble, modest guy in very less time .....hope I could get out some time for what I really wanted to do in my leisure time .....

Why such odd feelings??????????

The night b4 Test series generally i use to mug a lot in previous semesters but today i m not taking enough pain to even go through the minimum requirement to sit in exam......why so is pretty obvious that who cares and how it is going to effect me .....or may be complacency.....

Beside that today I suddenly realized that I m still alone and the people I use to call friends till date were mere mates ......may be that is mainly due to the over expectations ....may be due to some other reason ....but strange feelings keep cropping in my heart as well as brain....
plzzz i wanna come out of this feeling........lets hope by morning I am over it ...but who knows ....

I never realised that I am such a person who is completely different not only from other's perspective but also from my own too......

Maa ke Darshan

After a long talking session with only odour specialist in packaging paper (u can make out about whom I m talking) we 7 guys went to Vaishnodevi. Started moving on the inclination at around 12 in noon and reached arthakunwari at around 2 . Newly wed couple were flocking here and there and we were enjoying the nature's finest creation in all aspects.

The real fun was passing through the garbha I was not sure whether I can make it or not the more u get inside the more adventurous and twisty it became ..but anyhow I made it ... then again we moved on and on for 6 kms or so (god we were not sure if they were measuring distance or displacement in kms.

Got on the top it was really thrilling there and finally we went to bhairaw nath . Then started the journey back to Katra but we never realised that we have moved some 16 kms. back until we reached almost to the bottom and found that our muscles have started colliding with each other and we were in staggered position ....

slept a lot till we came back to insti.....

After Intern life kept going to the minima .....

It is long time I came back to jot down something ......
After coming back from my intern I was a bit perplexed and underconfident due to my GRE preparation and Finally that D Day (24 th August ) made me realised that I am one the greatest underachiever of all time .....got a sucking score of 1290 (shame on me !!!!!!!!!!!!!) ....Came out of examination center and was in such a disastrous condition that a snake charmer asked me for a rupee coin which I gave without thinking ... then he asked what ever is in your pocket just get a snake kiss on it and I was not in a negotiating position and ina hurry to leave the place I took out a 5o Rs note and placed it ...the charmer made the snake swallow it ....afterwards is well known phenomenon and I became IDIOT and STUPID ....went to KV sir's apartment and slept afterwards ....stayed there in Gurgaon for next 3 days so that I can come out of that frustrating situation thanx a lot to PVR which gave me some time away from that thinking environment .....after 7 days I had to appear for TOEFL so I thought it is going to be yet another disaster so didn't care to go through anything......The day for TOEFL came and I went to Dehradoon for it ......I was the lone examinee on that day ......So I think may be due to that I had less fear and finally I was over with this game ......Results were out and I somehow managed to get a respectable score.......
NOW started the real pain excersise as my frds kept me pestering that the scores are immaterial and I should apply to different universities , even my frd at Cornell gave his example (incidently he too got the same score) Due to bad score I was not happy and was literally thinking for some work which can kep me busy ( I was knowing that studies at this stage can't do that favour to me ) Thanks a lot to my dear ORKUT which brought few of my childhood buddies and from then onward every day I kept spending most of my time chatting with them and at the end of the day I found that I was able to spend all my 24 hrs without much tension.....
Studies took a back sheet and non of the course were fascinating......so it became a 2 night stand for me b4 examation(I am not brave enough like most of my batchmate who r ok with 1 night)
so every day became same affair ......
Now I kept browsing the websites of various universities and i was looking for environmental engineering course ........after 2 months of rigrous browsing (so called !!!!!!!!!) i realised that I don't want to go for it so I started browsing for Chemical Engineering........


Next coming is the appli process and the job schedule