Last Year - Lack of conviction will only allow to reach till IIM S interview

The year started with CAT 2008 result and as expected I was not one of the successful candidate ...but thought I will be one who will be in the list of successful candidate in next year list.
Determined not to think of anything else but prepare for CAT. I could see that to be the only way to move ahead in life. The dedication with which I read and appeared in Mock CAT never allowed me to think that eventually I will not achieve what I am capable off. But with every MOCK CAT things kept changing ...my determination and conviction kept changing .....instead of blaming my performance ...I thought I will do what ever is required on the D Day ...but see what happened on that day ....got an unexpected paper (till that day I thought it would really help me ) .....and i crumbled/succumbed to the pattern .....Lost all hope after seeing the results published by institutes. Then went for exams like IIFT/XAT and FMS.
Hardely expecting anything and year changed .....on result day ....i saw IIMS call.....i thought ...ohhhh...ok it is for everyone who appeared in CAT .....but later realised ...they are in search of people like me ....lack of conviction,deterination and if put into a competitive ambience can excel in comparison to peers ......hope I make it there :)